probation phase

I got caught......cheating. In the worst way possible.

What more can I say?


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Now, I'm in probation phase (the phase that I made by myself *evillaugh*). Okay, what is probation phase?
Probation phase is when you had done something so grotesquely wrong to your boyfriend (or anyone else) and behave as excellent as possible afterwards because you think by constantly being nice to him/her you might probably make up for what you had done. Long story short, you're just feeling bad.

Here's an example. Myself. I used to be a little bit of a bitch to my honey. But after what I did, every time I do something, it HAS to be something nice to him. Though the worst phase, where I couldn't do a single thing without thinking how evil I have been, and couldn't even look him in the eye, has passed, I still have the urges to be as nice as possible when it comes to him.

Hope someday, eventually, he'll forgive me completely. And also, I hope someday I could finally rule away this terrible guilt from staining my inner peace..
:(